Crying again.
Feeling lost beyond relief.
And stuck with no hope,
for the the fact of which none will help her.
She has tried for help,
with no result except that of which made her feel even more helpless.
She's hurting.
As her mind battles and searches for the right answer.
It tries to avoid the pain so it can continue to search. . .
To no avail.
She wonders why everything has to be this way. . .
After all she's been through, why must things always seem to fall apart?
And why, after since she's finally trying to let the past go, why must things spin out of control?
He loves me.
But in what way?
She feels like a fool for trusting so blindly.
Yes, she HAS been wronged, but she hates the way he deals with that.
Helpless. . . Foolish. . .
Her greatest fear is being alone.
She loves him too much to leave,
and is now simply in fear of things turning wrong within their relationship.
It is her own fault. . .  everything.

Should this all tear me down,
eat me inside out because I really want to show him how true I am. . .
Because I have chosen to give him another try,
to trust him again. . .
Should it all fall for the worse. . .
As it eats me alive, I will take the fall.
Because it was MY decision alone.